Abba and Child

Abba,

I love to call You in that name.

Not only because it is true and powerful, but mostly because it is sweet and intimate.

Abba, I thank You that You made me Your child—I am one adopted from darkness to light, from namelessness to co-heir with Christ. In tears I write You this letter because today, more than ever, I feel a shortness of faith. There's this feeling of uncertainty deep within me that I can't seem to explain. Doubt. Unbelief. These two things, I know are echoes that don't emanate from You. Because You are the only true picture of SURE and REAL in this world.

Today Abba, I feel weak. And honestly, this weakness is overwhelming. But my resolve is to stand on Your promise of life, of strength, of courage, of joy. And my defense is reliance completely and wholeheartedly on You. I lay down my impure heart. I cast down my idols.

I set aside my fears. I surrender the throne of my life to You. Once more. Daily. Because everyday's choice must always begin with You. Help me to live ever closer to You. Such that I feel Your heart and hear Your soft voice. Remind me that everyday I live is a page in Your story. And every time I flip the pages, the closer I get to eternity with You. Help me to love and appreciate each page, each chapter and build upon my heart a deep longing for a happy ending with You—a life of eternity in Your dwelling place.

Remind me that all my earthly pains are ordained by You.

Remind me that these are but momentary.

Remind me that You have won all my battles for me.

Remind me that You are with me, though I feel not, though I see not.

Abba, help me in my unbelief. Save my faith from wavering.

Breathe in me life. Breathe in me joy. Breathe in me hope.

I love You. Even though I lack the strength to prove You how much.

I love You. Even though I don't fully understand what that may mean.

I love You. You are all I have. You are all I need. You are my all in all.

Love,

Your Child